This is a sort of notepad to document rants, raves, good ideas, and terrible ideas, opinions, musings, inspirations, and ongoing projects
Monday, October 08, 2012
Chicago Ideas Week: A Critique of The Military Talk From the Battle front to the Home Front
The one statement which I agreed with which he spoke of was the idea that "Veterans can, in a sense, mentor all of us."
My skepticism was fully engaged as it appeared there would be little to address the fact that most of the young men and women who enlist don't do so for love of country, but more because the military is usually the best option they have in order to further their lives because they were born into less than stellar conditions. Yes there are people who do enlist out of patriotism, but to say that is the only reason they enlist is an incredibly narrow and selective view of reality. Brokaw did an articulate introduction in which he mentioned the immorality of having only one percent of a Democratic Nation bear 100% of the pain, hardship, injuries, and casualties for the rest of us.
General McChrystal and General Powell did hit on several kernels of truth in when you are with a unit, be it a company, platoon, or squad; when you are out in the field, whatever your military occupational specialty, it is ultimately about your team. When service members separate from the service either due to injury, or not re-enlisting, they are separated from a team, and because of their experiences, they really don't have a team looking out for them when they get back to civilian life, and they become stuck kind of in between.
One of the major themes which emerged from the two Generals talking could best be expressed in this metaphor: how can we get military cogs to fit into a civilian machine? What McChrystal and Powell spent a great deal of time on was how do military skills translate to a civilian economy? For me, this seemed to miss one of the other great failings in this nation, how do we help veterans as whole feel welcome in society, and what can we do to help the ones who are injured, hurt, or hurting. They did talk about the Wounded Warrior Project, and The Mission Continues, and other wonderful projects, but the amount of time spent on the economy over other issues was telling of the panel's priorities. There was a poignant moment which General Powell mentioned that at a veteran's luncheon he met a veterans who had lost three limbs and was basically recruited by a real estate company in California. The company wanted him specifically because he was a veterans, and they were aware of his condition. The young veteran said that losing three limbs was the worst thing which could have happened to him, but it was also the best thing which has happened to him. This served as an introduction to the concept that businesses from the small to the mega corporations should be proactive in recruiting veterans into the work force. I think in spite of the fact that this still is within the pitfall of basically putting profits over people, it was a step in the right direction.
Another relevant and kind of astonishing fact, General Powell again mentioned some interesting comparisons in how we were more engaged as a nation during previous wars. I can't recall what war he mentioned (I want to say Vietnam, but I am not sure), but with the ratio in the number of wounded back then was such that there was one wounded veteran for every sixty-some-odd civilians, so the fact that we had been fighting a war was impossible to ignore. Now we have a ratio of one visibly wounded veteran per 7000 civilians, so the effects of war are not as prevalent, and all but under the rug and swept for this generation of Americans.
I am reminded of the Robert E. Lee quote "It is well war is so terrible, lest we grow too fond of it." I am afraid though that as a nation we have grown to fond of it, and in part is because we do not see the destruction which has been wrought, not just to the nations where we are waging war, but in the households of all the wounded veterans. Mind you, when I say wounded, I am not just referring to physical injury, but also stress disorders, PTSD, and other similar issues. I think as a society, we have not really had to confront the reality of war here in the United States. the closest we have come to that as a nation was the attacks of September 11, 2001. Another good thing which did emerge from the seemingly endless talk about veterans and the economy was the fact that while a veteran can face combat, and the dangers of deployment, civilian life is a challenge which they are not always prepared for, and it is up to civilian to be proactive in reaching out to veterans and their loved ones and help them find a team here.
Paul Reickhoff took the stage after the two Generals left. His talk seemed a little bit more centered in reality, but not by much. He does address what would be the middle issue of not every veteran comes home wounded, not every veteran is a victim, and many are in fact quite proud of what they did, and well should be. He did address the fact that the VA is not enough, and with their backlog of 1 million, that is 1,000,000 claim backlog, things with the VA are progressively getting worse, and this is creating an abhorrent situation for veterans. He did provide a statement which does answer the empty-calorie sentiment of support the troops; give them a job. But it was still largely centered in the larger notion of simply getting getting veterans from the battlefield to a job, addressing very little of anything which might be important in the details of that transition.
Melissa Stockwell presented a much needed female veteran perspective. She spoke of how her father, even in the 2000's still had the thought "They let women in the military?" It is both an amusing, but rather disturbing notion that people still hold that sort of mentality in the 21st century. She has since become an accomplished Paratriathlete, and a Prostheticist helping other people, not just troops reclaim some sense of normalcy in their life with a new limb, and technologies which have advanced to the point that it is not just a prosthetic, but simply a "different leg". She did remark on how because of her injury, she has done more since than she would have if she would have come home whole. I think people who are usually confronted with obstacles like a missing limb have often put the rest of us able-bodied people to shame in that they seem to do so much more.
After Melissa stepped off stage, Taryn Davis shared her story, which addressed how families of soldiers are veterans, but also how in this generation there are many young women who are acquiring the rather dubious title of "Widow" at a very young age. She had married her high school sweet heart, Michael Davis. Taryn recounted the day she found out about Michael's death, and my heart sank. I think this was by far the most human presentation/discussion in the entire panel. She spoke of the surrealness as she had gotten a ride from her parent's house by a neighbor to see two soldiers in front of a military vehicle shaking and barely holding their composure because they did not want to tell her that Michael was dead, and show because of this she thought they were telling another military wife. After the funeral, and a few months later, people discounted her grief as a widow because she was so young, or because "he knew what he was getting into when he enlisted" and to Taryn, it seemed a better option to join her husband than to go on living. When she finally went to Google to search "widow" and Google responding with "Did you mean 'window'", she had found new purpose in the other young military widows, and started the American Widows Project. I think this is one of the toils of war which we do not hear about. I actually had not even considered the premise of young 21 year old widows. The idea is so bizarre and unreal if you really think about it, but they exist!
I think Taryn would have been a great place to conclude the presentation, if anything because of the warmth and the fact that her story resonates most with tugging at the heart strings. No offense to Major General Marcia Anderson, but her presentation I thought was a very sharp turn back to the "we need veterans to get the economy going again" mentality. She spoke about the experience that reservists have, and how they are probably most like the ninja veterans in that they can be in your communities and you may not know that your neighbor is a reservist. I think it is important to have her voice and experience as the highest ranking female of color in the military, but it seemed like a very abrupt transition from something so centered on a sense of heartfelt community and emotion, to go back to business minded approach. She did mention two organizations which help reservists, Fort Families, and Army Strong Community Centers. I think if she were to keep with the emotional tone of Taryn's presentation, perhaps if she highlighted specific stories or went more into the details of the New York Veteran who was homeless with a bipolar disorder that was helped by the Rochester Army String Community Center, it may have had a sense of thematic emotional continuity. I will give due respect to Major General Anderson, to make it to her rank and boast proud titles like Mother and Grandmother among her other accolades is a respectable achievement in a male dominated field.
Sunday, July 15, 2012
Freedom of Speech & Freedom from Consequence
People, specially people in the realm of celebrity and influence should chose their words more carefully. Someone hears what they have to say, and take it as the thing to do, or believe, which in turn has greater consequences. As one of my favorite journalists Allison Killkenny once said, and I am paraphrasing a bit... "It is not our job to make bullies and bigots comfortable." People should take responsibility for what they say. This applies to bullies, pundits, but also to community members on the local scope, such as teachers, preachers, and family members.
Saturday, May 26, 2012
I'm not a preachy vegetarian, don't be an asshole omnivore
Sunday, May 20, 2012
convictions, or lack thereof: musings on NATO, protesters, and teaching
Today many military Veterans symbolically divested themselves from their Global War on Terrorism Medals, Operation Enduring Freedom Medals, and Operation Iraqi Freedom Medals. Neither NATO nor the United States Government send any representative, which I guess were expected to be present, to receive them. Their gesture spoke volumes about the veteran’s convictions; which I admire. I also think that the NATO or US leadership could not be bothered to send anyone to hear the grievances of the protesters is also very telling. The fact that politically, they basically outfit the police in a fashion akin to a soldier going on patrol is very telling of how things have changed now. It is scary, and I hope that in the end general decency and good will prevail; though thinsg are seeming more and more doubtful.
Friday, April 27, 2012
A Wrench in the Works
Sunday, April 01, 2012
Project Brainstorms
The Penance Cycle
This project hinges on my fixation with Arabic calligraphy and the script itself being very beautiful, as well as a moment in my paltry understanding of the Arabic Language, I fixated on a phrase which had a series of "ye"s in consecutive order. Irhabiyeen is a gross transliteration of it. It means "terrorism", conjugated from the root word Irhabi or terrorist. One of the translators clarified the statement on the psychological operations poster hanging in the company area as a sample of a larger billboard which had gone up ion Baghdad asking the populous to not support terrorism. The message is now gone from my memory, but that word stuck. I'm a fan of language and how language works, I thought about my lessons in my 90 hour Arabic immersion course prior to my deployment and all the "I am, he is, she is, we are" exercises, and I thought "Ena Irhabi" or I'm a Terrorist. The phrase itself is very transgressive and confrontational, even if only written out. But to have "I'm a Terrorist" or "Ena Irhabi" written out in Arabic, with its beautiful undulating script becomes something else all together in a post-9/11 United States. I'm still playing with the idea, and what ways I can create images which are both inviting and also engaging for non-arabic speakers/readers.
Idol Worship/Idle Worship
Teaching High School, one of the teenage behaviors which has caught my attention is the fixation on certain celebrities. Students will tape photos onto lockers, or inside binders, and make up impossible fantasies of running away with said celebrity. This is largely a distinctly feminine phenomenon. The male students usually have a particular female celebrity which they objectify, and use as a base for their physical standards which is problematic in its own way. However students of both genders generally have someone which they fixate on. This is where I get my next idea for a possible series. While I do not devote nearly the amount of time or energy to celebrities, I do have a few individuals who I do fixate on either in the arts, performance or music. I was thinking of drawing parallels between the way people worship in various religions substituting celebrity icons for the religious iconography. In a sense this could be an excuse of drawing and painting images of celebrities I admire, but that might be too idiosyncratic.
Pictures with Veterans
I have met with and taken photos with several military veterans; one whose story I credit with giving me the cognitive push to endure my deployment with far more courage, grit, and preparation to accept any outcome regardless what would happen. I have met many more admirable veterans since separating from the Army, and have taken photos with most of them. I painted one photograph already, and have started a second one in the past 3 months. The work on these is sporadic, but I am pleased with the results. I do think if I keep going with this it can become a coherent series rather than a disjointed jump-start-stall of a body of work I normally do which has little coherence or reason.
One of the reason I articulate these ideas is basic ownership and a rudimentary effort to hold myself to some manner of accountability. Amongst the other things I am trying to nurture and grow, I figure something will come of this.
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Shocking War Videos and the Forgotten Context of War
Recently there was a video of four United States Marine Fighters urinating on the corpses of alleged Taliban fighters. Rick Perry drew some criticism for comparing the video to the Daniel Pearl video as noted on the Daily Beast. Asra Nomani wrote a very compelling response to the concept which Perry brought up. Reflecting on my own experiences with the criticism of war videos and the criticism they will draw, I am compelled to reflect and respond to this. There have been numerous videos which have emerged from both sides of the ideological “War on Terrorism”. The “War on Terror” itself is problematic, and I am certain historians are busy writing their dissertations on the matter. Something that people forget, and Perry touches on this, as well as Nomani: War is one of the most destructive, devastating and catastrophic forces in the world. Part of the outrage which stems from the Marine video urinating on the corpses, as unfortunate as those actions are, is that in this ideological war, we idealize and elevate our fighting forces to a status comparable to paragons of virtue, defenders of all that is right and just in the world. They are representatives of American virtues and values. They represent everything that is purportedly good and wholesome about
Monday, January 16, 2012
Feelings of loserdom, and grappling with the reality of now
I understand perspective is very much at play here, and this student only sees one sliver of my reality. What he says and believes is a compliment, and I should take it as that, say "Thank you" and move on. But in my warped sense of what a successful thirty something should look like, the idea that I am successful is such a cognitive dissonance in what I understand to be successful.
Now this alone was just some existentialist ennui until I heard a very thought provoking episode of Citizen Radio where a 26 year old listener refers to himself as a live-with-parents-loser. He goes further to articulate how he is trying to make things better for himself. He was both very candid, and really funny in how he wrote about his situation. His plight prompted many people too empathize and reflect on their own very similar situation. This too, resonated with me, and hearing this caused my student's statement to echo. Unfortunately, in reflecting on my own situation and the age disparity, I felt a little bit worse in the apparent solidarity of college graduates in similar situations. I have friends who are married, have a place of their own, have a well established career with some job security and an overall sense of stability. Contrasting that my own life seems frenetic, and stress has a distinct rhythm which is concurrent with the stability of my income. The past four months have been more stable than the past three years.
Given the fact that I am among the generation of college graduates who had the misfortune of graduating into one of the worst economic times in the history of the United States, I can justify my current state. However, my mind has been warped by the narrative which has been pushed in the media, and socially for the past twenty years or so. In spite of my acknowledging the reality of my situation, cognitively, I have a dissonance which upon self-reflection, nags on me, and provokes the self-identification as a loser.